i posted my last journal entry last year in july and i thought i should write a new one as it is a new year and also so many things have change since then. i dont know what you write in these really, but what im going to write is nothing to do with my photography or deviant art, and to be honest i dont even like photography i only got this site to look cool, and get inspiration for art pieces and so on. but ya since july, ive cheered up alot, i dont think about him anymore or him lol, because there is no need to because i have found someone better, yep ricky he makes me super happy, im actually really lucky to find a boy who actually treats me nice, and makes me feel this happy!!!! ive also started sixth form, i got all my gcse's i need, and ive realised im actually not thick. its hard doing AS levels tho, textiles, art and history. as there time consuming and i have to put alot of effort into them, and thats my problem at the moment, EFFORT. I cant be bothered im so lazy, i really need a kick up the arse from someone. People try to do that tho like my mum and my grandparents but it doesnt work, as i know the only person who could actually make realise what im chucking away and make me work is my dad. But my dad is no longer here. its a shame. i dont want to turn into a waster working in tescos. i want to be an artist and an designer, i want to create things, i dont kknow what yet but ya. and i want people to appericate my art work. and thats only going to happen if i work SHIT! haha ive wrote alot, but i needed to, and im very sorry to people who have read this, your probably bored out your face and wondering why this girl is telling you about her liffe at the moment. Pfft o well i guess this is goodbye until another few months when i write about how my life is turning about. bye